Wow, it's been a while.

For a long time, I've been thinking about travelling. I've been craving a roadtrip holiday. Of driving and exploring. But mostly, I've been craving the car trip. A never-ending car ride, travelling to unknown places but never stopping. What is happening to me?

I'm so unsettled at the moment. I feel like I can't remember who I am or what I want to be. I have so many ideas and options but I just don't know what to do. I wish I could see into the future, for someone to tell me what I should do. But I know that it's all up to me. I think that's what makes it so damn scary.

Part of me wishes I had the courage to make up my mind and to decide where I'm going. Another part of me thinks that maybe this is the very definition of courage: being brave enough to question the path that you're taking and where you're heading.

I forgot to update after the Michael Buble concert but I decided that it deserves a post of its own anyway.

It was unbelievale! I wasn't expecting much when he walked onstage looking slightly worse-for-wear but I was so wrong. He's really funny and entertaining -- I think one third of the concert was him talking and making jokes. He interacted with the audience and posed for photos with children. Going on what you get to see, he's one of those celebrities that you'd love to be friends with.

The best songs were Home, Lost and Everything. I was so glad that he sang Home. I filmed it on my mobile but unfortunately it didn't work! I was so annoyed but I'm just glad that I got to see it in person.

Also, these guys were the opening act. Spend 4 minutes checking out this video -- they're amazing!

All in all, it was a fantastic concert. I'd definately tell people to go see Buble when he tours again.

I'm inspired...

... by this guy and his project. I would love to do this. I think it would be the perfect thing to keep me on track and inspired to do all of the things that I want to do but never think I will do.

I'm going to start making my list. I'll have the list finished well before the end of the holidays which will hopefully give me a chance to attempt at least one of the goals.

Now I'm left to decide 2 things: how many goals should I set and how long should I give myself to complete my goals? Let me know!

Uh oh, I'm already getting behind on updating.



There are but a few days left of the semester and I can't wait for my 5 week break. I have 2 assignments left to finish plus a presentation on Friday.

Mum and I are going to the Michael Buble concert tomorrow night. I'm not excited about it yet but I really hope he sings Home, it's one of my favourite songs.

I'm happy because:

~ It's raining
~ I'm going to have chocolate pancakes for dinner
~ I've saved $550 in my money box and $400 in my bank account
~ My final assignments are due next Friday and semester 1 will be over.
~ 5 weeks holidays, starting next Friday.
~ Hamish and Andy make me laugh (even repeats)... and yes, I did get the people's chip! Gravy chips are exceptional, in case you're wondering.


My happiness is diminished because:

~ I'm in a permanent state of tiredness.
~ I wish things were different now. Sometimes I'm so impatient.

Photos

I wait for the shutter to click, smiling and laughing at what is happening around me. I wonder why we're having family photos now, why he's never wanted our photos before now.

Still, no matter what, I can't hate him. I just can't.

I'm here, waiting for it to disappear. But it doesn't. It gets worse. I don't know how to make it better.